I usually get pretty negative reactions when I tell people that I’m living by myself this next school year, but I’m actually pretty excited to move into my studio tomorrow :)
When I explain my living situation I feel like I have to justify how safe it is or how I’m not completely isolated but fuck it. From now on I realize that I am not obligated to justify my life, particularly in terms of where and how I choose to live.
"You can find fresh pain every time you discover what you pretty much already know"
- bathroom stall at Espresso Royale
And by that I mean that I am actually going to do it this time!
A couple weeks ago I scheduled to declare as a Biology major but then freaked out and had a mini-life crisis and canceled the appointment 30 minutes before hand.
I’ve thought about everything more and have calmed myself down so now I have an appointment to declare as a Cellular, Molecular, and Developmental Biology major that I will ACTUALLY GO TO this time! :P
So right now I’m “majoring in neuroscience” but I’m not to happy with it so I’ve been thinking about other potential science majors…
However, earlier today I was like “Omg maybe I should be an artist and just live life to its fullest and enjoy it and blah blah blah”
A few hours later I was like “Maybe I should go into some sort of community outreach type of thing to help educate people about psychiatric diseases and blah blah blah”
10 minutes later I was like “Why don’t I just become a Psychiatrist and specialize in some specific disease and benefit the world by helping those people and do research on it and blah blah blah”
And then I went to a research seminar where I heard a Biomedical Engineer talk about human tissue engineering and I’m like “Wtf am I doing in LSA (College of Literature, Science and the Arts), I should be an engineer so I can do bad ass stuff like that even if I’ll die taking Calc 2, 3, and 4, and all these other hard classes and whatevs”
AND THEN I’M LIKE “OMG engineers are nerdy weirdos, I should just go to med-school!”
BUT THEN I’M LIKE “THAT’S HARD AS SHIT AND MED-SCHOOL IS OVER RATED!!!”
So here I am now. Not knowing wtf I’m doing but I guess it’s okay because I’m only a freshman….